The Time Has Come. . .

[icemink]

So I've been very distracted since yesterday when I found out I didn't get accepted into graduate school.

So obviously I'm not happy about it, cause rejection, who likes that? But I'm also kind of relieved. I'm not really sure I'd do well in graduate school right now. My undergraduate work has been so easy the last couple semesters that I've fallen into some bad habits. The break is probably good for me. I'm probably going to apply to some other schools, but I don't see myself getting into graduate school anytime soon. Only 15 people were accepted out of 130 applicants. Of course different schools would have different ratios of applicants to slots, but right now a lot of people are applying to graduate school because they can't get jobs.

And that's what really scares me, finding a job. I have a lot of friends lately who have been looking for jobs. Of course a lot of them weren't trying that hard, and some of them aren't all that qualified for stuff, still it's scary. On the other hand, all the people who are telling me I shouldn't worry about finding a job, where the same people who told me I was sure to be accepted to graduate school.

The real problem however, is that I have no idea what I want to do. One of my main reasons for applying to graduate school was to give me more time to figure that out. I want to go back to work, it's been driving me a little crazy not working, but I don't know what I want to do. I know I'd like to have a career again, but I really don't know what.

I could rant on this subject for a long time, but it would just be going around in circles. I just wish I felt like my degree had actually prepared me for something.

Anyway, it may be a while till I get any more chapters out. In both my stories I'm stuck at places where I can't get the wording or flow just right, and my concentration is too shot for me to sit down and work through them right now.

Comments

[spikesdeb.livejournal.com]

I'm sure things will work out. Just hang on in there. Take some time out, find yourself. And I hope the writing flows again soon.

Take care.

[oracleholly.livejournal.com]

**big hugs** I just know that everything will be just fine. Sometimes blessings come in unexpected ways. If you need someone to run ideas by, email me.

Love ya.

[cordykitten]

I wish that you'll find what you are looking for.
And don't forget - when a door closes, a window opens.
Cordykitten

[icemink.livejournal.com]

Thanks. Intellectualy I know everything will work out. Just needed to rant out those non-rational fears. As for finding myself, I don't really think I'm the sort of person who can find themselves. When I'm 60 I'll probably be starting on my twelfth career. Which I'm normaly okay with. It would be easier though if my parents hadn't known what they wanted to do since they were in high school it would be easier.

[icemink.livejournal.com]

Thanks, I may take you up on the idea thing later. I know where my current stories are going, but I've been working on some new ideas that haven't really developed yet.