I have anger issues too...I was raised in a household where that was one emotion that my mother could not tolerate. Daddy would only express anger while in the basement workshop (and mom would spaz then even though it was nothing more than Navy days cursing when machinery didn't cooperate). I get physically ill when dealing with anger and nearly always swallow it down making myself ill. On rare occassions (usually on behalf of someone else) I'll let loose. I've a razor sharp tongue it seems, filled to the brim with vinegar and sarcasm, truly deadly tongue. Then the guilt comes and back to the repressed sick feelings. Basically I'm not doing myself any favors by not just accepting that anger is essential and proper and can be expressed when felt. I can mentally give myself the same advice I gave you (that it is the correct response), but actually DOING it.....
In short (yeah, too late I know).....just feel baby, feel and know you have the right to feel whatever you do without explanations or apologies.
Kathleen {{{hugs}}} hoping the move will being great things your way. Sometimes our plans and dreams can be hard to give up or forgive for not being what we wanted.
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I have anger issues too...I was raised in a household where that was one emotion that my mother could not tolerate. Daddy would only express anger while in the basement workshop (and mom would spaz then even though it was nothing more than Navy days cursing when machinery didn't cooperate). I get physically ill when dealing with anger and nearly always swallow it down making myself ill. On rare occassions (usually on behalf of someone else) I'll let loose. I've a razor sharp tongue it seems, filled to the brim with vinegar and sarcasm, truly deadly tongue. Then the guilt comes and back to the repressed sick feelings. Basically I'm not doing myself any favors by not just accepting that anger is essential and proper and can be expressed when felt. I can mentally give myself the same advice I gave you (that it is the correct response), but actually DOING it.....
In short (yeah, too late I know).....just feel baby, feel and know you have the right to feel whatever you do without explanations or apologies.
Kathleen
{{{hugs}}} hoping the move will being great things your way. Sometimes our plans and dreams can be hard to give up or forgive for not being what we wanted.